My Sweet Baby,

It's been three months since I held you in my arms for the first time and finally got to see your face; the face I had been dreaming about for 9 months.  I've wanted to start writing letters to you sooner, but the first few months with you have been quite a tiring whirlwind.  We're still getting the hang of things - but I think we're figuring it out together.

You've changed so much in these first three months!  I've watched you begin to grow from a tiny, little baby that only would eat, sleep, and cry - to a little, thinking human being.  I could watch your face all day while you explore new things.  I love seeing your personality begin to blossom; you've become quite the little flirt!  And I have some of the best conversations with you as you chatter and coo to me nonstop.  You are just absolutely amazing.  A miracle of life.

My hope with these letters is to document all of life's little lessons throughout our journey together.  I have tons of pictures of you to document your growth, I've saved souvenirs of various things to document special occasions.  These letters are just to continue to let you know how I fall in love with you more and more every day.  If anything were to ever happen to me, my hope is that you would have these letters and know, without a shadow of a doubt, that you are 100% the best thing that has ever happened to me.  My greatest accomplishment.

So to start off, here's some lessons I've learned in the first three months with you:

• A mother's love is fierce.  From the moment I felt your first kick in my tummy, it was instinctual.  When they laid you on my chest, it became real.  And as I've held you every day in my arms, it's absolutely unconditional.  
• I'm going to make mistakes.  I've made plenty these past few months - from snapping at you when I was overly tired, to accidentally scratching your leg with my ring; and I'm probably getting more stuff wrong along the way that I don't even realize yet.  But even though I'm still figuring out some of the details to this new mommy roll in my life, it's the best job in the world.
• I celebrate every little developmental milestone you make like we both just won the Olympics.  Seeing you grow and think and start to do things purposefully is absolutely astounding.  It's exciting and I'm filled with such pride and wonderment.  Even though daddy and I made you, you are your own unique person!
• There will never be a day, hour, minute, second that I don't stop loving you, thinking about you, or worrying about you.  You are my everything.

I can't wait to see everything that life has in store for both of us.  Hopefully along the way, I'll be able to continue to share with you some of the lessons I've learned - some that I'm sure you will be teaching me!

I love you so much,
Mommy